Too much loading...

guess what?i'm not gonna say wat happened,i'm not gonna mantion any single word about it,and, i'm not gonna explain it to some one els .= =''

k,1st,i got so terkejut ,and den i cool down myself.
after tat,i caml my emotions,and put some attn on it.

an den...a strong feeling of sadness went in to my nerves,
and i was like "OMG....hw can it be...." .
i silence....for like 10minutes.
and continue ...
finish ,my tears wanted to drop,but end up it didnt. why?bcoz i GOT MAD.

i know,its none of my damn business,but wat cn i do??
i still hav feelings in mind man!
i was sad,
and feeling so helpless to wat happened,
so what?!
its none of my **** business!!
why care??

i dont know,maybe its juz bcoz,
I CARE FOR IT.

none of this shit would had happen,
if it wasnt for **,
none of this feelings would had appear,
if it wasnt for ***,
none of this would i care,
if it wasnt bcoz of ****.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
zzzzzzzzzzz
zzzzzzz
zzz

i hate it when i got MAD.
I HATE IT.

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in a sudden,i felt thr was something or someone was talking in my mind:

SHUT UP !
THIS IS NONE OF UR ******* BUSINESS!
AND STAY OUT OF IT!
STAY COOL!
BE WISED!
NOT BEING EMOTIONAL U IDIOT!!

yeah,guess who was it?
yes,its me,myself.

i was talking to myself,
thinking by myself,
guessing by myself.
i dont ask,i act like i dont care and dont mind,
what's the use? huh??tell me wat's the use of it?!

thr is too much questions loading in my mind....
i cant solve it by myself...
all i can do is wait.
and smile to each cuming day.