Hate u ,yet Like u.

must our friendship be that way?
so near yet so far,so true yet so false.
i can't make myself to 'like' u.
looking at u is like looking at a dark angel,
i hate that innocence feeling in u,
maybe it's true in other's eye but in mine...it's a fake innocence.
i can't find a reason to tell u i hate u,
and i can't find a reason to tell u i like u.
it's just,all of this is my problem, i'm the 1 who's with strange view to u.
i try to like u, i really do, but something came into me when i started to like u,
coz the 'hate' feeling came back when the 'like' feeling is near,
why?
why do i see u differently compare to others?
why?....

there's half of me is trying to like u,
and the other half of me is refusing me to like u,
i care sometimes, but i don't speak out.
i wanted to apologize everytime when the 'hate u' me came out in a sudden,
but i just don't dare to say it. why?
i'm a coward who doesn't face the fact.
i hate u, yet i still like u.

i can't change it, coz this is the way i am.
pls forgive me, my dear friend.